i n s p i r e d . . .

You know, I wish I could give you peace, but it' s not in my power. I'm powerless. I SO get what you're feeling. It's hard to accept because your heart tells you that you would fix it all. Your desire to fix it all is undeniable evidence that you are a good sister, wonderful daughter, loving aunt and (coming from one who knows), A GREAT FRIEND! We -- those of us who struggle that you're unable to help, must help ourselves. You can love us and support us but you can't fix us -- that's our job. We have to save ourselves. The only one that can't help herself is the one you're there for ... you're the brightest light in her life, my love. Speaking for myself, you're an incredible friend to me with unfailing love and concern. That helps me get through my struggles more than you know. I hope that one day, when I've crawled out of this emotional hole, I can be the friend to you that you deserve. I <3 you>!

Thank you, Susan. <3

Oh honey. Despair and regret are two that go hand in hand I think. The more we linger with one, the more prominent the other becomes, until we one day look up and realize that we are in so deep, we wonder how anyone can find us, much less find ourselves. Happiness comes. After the despair, happiness comes. I've got you on my heart and in my prayers. I love you, and you know how to reach me if ever you need to.

I know how you feel about the stuff you have no control over. Its frustrating, but sometimes you have to deal with the fact that you do not control the world. Easier said than done I know, because I've been shaking my fist at god for taking my grandma.

Ah chicka, we all have times of self doubt, and we all feel like we are inadequate at our roles in life..but, BUT!!! what you feel, and what others see is two totally different things. *says she who has zero self confidence* It's true though.. 'cos my therapist told me so! =D Methinks a little bit of anxiety has krept into your life due to the stress of other issues, no? When one is feeling less than healthy, we tend to get depressed/have self loathing... walk away... walk away from the worries you have right now, and do something YOU want. Tomorrow will be a better day. And if that fails, drop me an email, and I'll send ya some ROOOOOLY good funny email pics which will cheer ya up no end. =) Luvyaguts lots, Ute. oxoxoxoxoxox

I think I am feeling the same way right now!

Aw. Your words break my heart. I hope things get better soon. (hugs).

...still waiting for the right words to come. yet everything i type seems trite and not at all what i want to say... so instead, for now, i'll just squeeze your hand gently and hope my virtual touch will convey my deep affection and concern. hang on, hon. one breath, one step, one minute at a time...

I was sure that I posted a comment here the other day........

:( ***HUGS***

Hope you are well. Replying to your comment: painting is a form of expression... you do it well with your writing!! And I remember the first post I read of yours, it was the jogging one. Do you remember?!?! That moment you touched my heart and through your writing ever since!!!